it’s almost funny to see how fragile something is, that can be broken by a single word, a single sentence, a single anything from anyone.
did it hurt? or cut? if tts what you were looking for, you did get it. i was hurt, badly. but, ultimately, it’s not my decision to make. did i fault anyone? no. blame anyone? no. do i? i never did, and i never want to.
did i regret anything? no, no i didn’t. i don’t regret. i don’t like regretting. but if there’s ever one, its nt studying hard enough in sec sch/jc.
can people of different ideologies nt be friends? why must we judge on what it seems to us, on our personal perceptions, and not hear from the other side? shld we refute what we don’t see? or that which we do not agree with without a clear explanation? shld we negate that which is not in our understanding?
i know things happen for a reason, and maybe that was it. idk. i don’t know much about these things anyway. but i do think that misunderstandings shld be cleared. i am sure that friends we will nvr be again. but that doesnt mean that i won’t still help any of you if you ever need it (nt tt u will even think of me other than to scold me). and it doesnt mean that i would talk bad abt any of you behind ur back. it doesn’t mean that i will spread stories true or untrue about you to anyone.
i am upset that things turned out this way, who wouldn’t? but it has already happened. i cant do anything to change whatever has happened.
i stand firm. i don’t blame anyone, i am not angry at anyone. i am trying my best to take all of this in my stride (which, btw, is quite short due to the shortness of my legs) and trying to take in all of this with “an everyday mind”.
i am unsure of my next move, my next step, and even my emotions at this point in time. i guess, it is not appropriate for me to say anything now in such a confused state of mind.
i do realise that whatever i say may be taken in a totally wrong and different interpretation than what i had meant. maybe thats whats going to stop me from blogging or writing. totally stop.
i am sick and tired of misunderstandings.
