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sth is wrong with my computer. it doesnt show minimized windows on the taskbar. -.-” restarting dont help either. anw, dino’s not coming back tomorrow. he’ll be coming back on monday instead. i feel weird tdy. strangely emo. imma try to sleep.

just went for a 2hr badminton session with my cousin and her two colleagues lol. tired!!! i havent played badminton for so long!! we booked the court at Jurong West Sports Complex. badminton is a very tiring sport. -.-” anyways i wanna go swim again!! lol. the pool is HUGE.

oh n my sis looks like a regular sec sch b*tchy bimbo. -.-” ewww. like those lians that i always see on the street and hate. urgh. i hate bimbos.

its 730 am and i have already been attacked by the mosquito army -.-” in any case gotta run to play badminton with my cousin!! lol. i got almost nothing appropriate to wear! lol.

today is a good day!! and i did two things for the first time!!! the first of which is .. i regret to say, strictly confidential and ive “sworn” to secrecy.. but the second thing is, i actually went to the pool with no previous agenda (urm, apart from slacking and trying to get a tan lol) yes i was trying to get a tan. BUT the sun is not cooperative today. he disappeared almost 90% of the time. so me and alicia were, in all honesty, very upset!!! so yes im happy. and also happy cos after doing these two things (in particular the first), i am more geared up towards my lose weight goal lol. but i must stop talking about this lose weight stuff cos its very irritating. esp. to listeners lol. yes, i realise that, thank you very much i get quite sick of saying it too. i think i have low self-esteeem but who cares? seriously. its not just for the appearance thing, but (for me, at least) for the health issue. so yes. im not overweight but i seriously need to control before my weight spirals out of control. -.-” weird.

anyways, as i told alicia, was looking through my sec sch results. and OMG, i cannot believe those were my grades and i wasn’t even concerned!!! idk weva to laugh or just shake my head and say: is that really me (?) omg! seriously! oh and i was looking at this project work thing that we had to do when we were in sec3. and we had to corkiest group name! lol. Bio Alliteration!!! lol. cos there were 4 lit students and 1 bio student in our group haha. but we were from the same class tho. corkiest! haha. THOSE days man. those unbelievably screwed up days.

ohohoh!! we saw this ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUSLY PERFECT painters’-smock kinda dress today. yes, its denim. but its perfect! i mean, its cute! really! hmmz. i wish i can wear it lol. more inspiration towards the goal!!

anyways, i got a shock when i opened my room door just now BECAUSE MY ROOM WAS SO CLEAN!!!! i have a habit of putting all the books i read before i sleep (i have to read at least ten pages a night if not i cant sleep) on the table beside my bed (which is also where my water bottle is located) and its like, idk.. 3 stacks of books piled super high. and today, i opened the door and POOF! all i could see was my floor!! i actually can see the floor beside my bed!!! lol. its cleaner now, my room that is. ive only got one single problem .. where am i going to find the stuff? cos im so used to having them just anywhere (but i still know where instinctively)

oh and dino’s coming back soon. i just hope that the plane takes off on time cos the weather in aus now is quite bad i think. they havent confirmed the time for the flight even. cos of the darned weather and they have already put off going to Blue Mountain since Tuesday. which is pretty bad, eh, mate? lol.

anyways, idk if anyone realised but im starting to make a conscious effort to cut out all my “like”, “totally” and “so”. but my anyways is still a habit. gotta keep working at it. its all in the head. its all in the head.

tdy was the last lesson with the thais (and guess what: i wasn’t informed until today -.-” ) so nvm then. feel strangely sad. like .. just sad. u noe, that i cant be teaching them anymore. and anyways, our new maid just came tdy -.-” not used to it still. anyways going swimming with alicia again tomorrow lol. quite looking forward to it and tomorrow will be friday!! counting down 4 days!! oh and there are a lot of ants crawling on my laptop. idk why. always happens when there’s rain coming and does not matter weva i close the laptop or not they’re always there!! darned the rain. i had a weird and terrible dream last night. it was definitely weird. and definitely terrible. very terrible.

nothing much tdy. but quite pissed off. lol. the person told me tdy lesson at 1030 am. n i had to drag my sorry as* there so early in the morning (it takes me 1.5 hrs to get there). n im not feeling well already… -.-” then they tell me hey.. its 1.30pm!! urgh. i pontanged. n came home n take meds n sleep. -.-” what a day. in the process of deciphering this very very nice spanish song. it goes like this:

tu me dijiste adios : you said goodbye
no se porque razon : i’m not sure for what reason
no se, no se, no se : i don’t know, i don’t know, i don’t know

que culpa tuve yo : how is it my fault
jugaste con mi amor : you played with my love
por que, por que, por que : why? why? why? (or, for what reason)

pero no importa te pordono : it doesn’t matter, I forgive you
yo ya olvide lo que paso
sabes que sigo enamorado
y solo pienso en nuestro amor

no mires hacia atras
ya se que volveras
a mi, ya se, ya se..

havent finished deciphering the last part lol. but i like this song so much!!! lol. and anyways i just ate a lot for dinner and drank a lot of green tea and i’m belching a lot -.-” better go sleep soon cos i hafta wake up so super early for tomorrow’s lesson… =.=”

i got sunburnt!! lolx. blardie hell! lolx. and anyways i literally look like monkey’s butt now. hahahahahaa. i think i wanted to become dark, not red. but anyways, quite pissed off at first. okay, firstly, we decided to go to the new Jurong West Swimming Complex there. cos its NEW, so the water (supposedly) will be cleaner. right? like, common sensical right?kay then we went there and finally got to the pool. then suddenly we saw a sign that read: pool open from 0800 to 2130 daily. closed on tuesdays. WTF!!! closed on tuesdays!! which public place will CLOSE ON TUESDAYS??? its like such a weird day for closing no?? so nvm…. we made our way to the more familiar JE pool. then.. under construction. at least, we thought the competition pool was under construction. apparently not. so all’s well right? so go swimming!! lol. then came this weird uncle. who (i swear idk why) kept swimming between me and alicia. WTH. then everytime swim halfway must SIAM SIAM SIAM! tiring to siam people u noe?? wth man.. plus some boliao guys standing along the side-wall of the pool so must siam the uncle and must siam their legs. -.-” but nevertheless, it was a fun swimming trip lolx. but swam super little today! only about 1km. but the sun really too strong lol.

then we went to the lazy pool. the only downside was that there were so many malays n indians. whom, i thought, looked onli like sec sch kids. and (aren’t they supposed to be in sch)?? maybe i pad jiu tad stamp. or sth. but nvm. lol. anyways we went two rounds on the lazy pool!! doing crazy stuff (for me, at least) like trying to jump sideways, leap frog, swim against the current, trying not to bump into the “humps” lol. i think i got no childhood can?? but fun lar!!!

so anyways we moved on to the wave pool! waited until the waves came lol. the waves were pretty strong and we left after they switched off the wave thing. -.-” oh, and can those people please dont bring their lovey dovey moments into the wave pool?? like.. hello??????? these two people were like hugging and kissing n touching here n there in the pool lar. i mean, cant u at least find a more secluded place or sth??? nvm none of my business anyways. its just that sometimes it becomes quite embarrassing for other people cos u just want to look somewhere and when your line of sight dirfts.. suddenly u see these two people hugging and kissing and its like quite embarrassing lar! like u’re intruding on other people’s privacy like that.

so nvm. (sidenote: i have a certain something against guys who wear super low cut flourescent coloured/brightly coloured trunks esp. those which are bright yellow, orange, pink, or other gayish colours)

so yes. and i had a little “conspiracy” with my going-to-grow-up-to-be-a-composer student lol. shes dam*Ed fun lar! but of course, she follows her own rhythm n never quite follows the notes but. u noe, we can take it slow. but she’ll always pick out certain passages of the songs that she thinks is quite cool or fun or nice and then play around with the notes and creating her own rhythm , tempo, beat , passages etc. lol. super fun! and shes very cute! and she looks like a doll! super long eye lashes. i think can put toothpicks on top lol. anyways. id better stop before someone thinks im a peadophile.

today is dino’s competition. i wonder how it went. still waiting for the phone call. hope my phone isnt konking up cos its been acting weird all day lol. tdy is impt call!!! i wonder how they did… excited. and i certainly hope hes remembered to take pics of the opera house for me. ive heard so much about sydney’s opera house but ive never been there and the only places i see it is on tv and on the internet… -.-” what a loser i am lolx. i need something for my face. somelotion or sth. i don want my face to peel (but of cos, im already pretty ugly so doesnt really matter but, still, it has got to at least look presentable cos i still have 3 more days of lessons!!! and practicum starts next week!!! -.-”)

sth weird’s happening to me these days. start thinking about my appearances and upkeep and all. idk! i mean, ive been raised to think that looks isnt all that matters yada yada yada. and in my hse, its almost always like a sin to want to look good and pretty. momma will say things like : dont so hiao lar! and im wearing t-shirt and jeans or sth like that or worried about my weight gain n stuff like that. frankly, ive nvr felt good about all the weight i gained. lol. feels so heavy! and more lethargic. not to mention more sweat! sometimes. ive always perspired a lot so it prolly doesnt really matter to me. but i dont like feeling heavy and tired. lol. i might just be a little hyperactive but i seriously dont really care. at least i live happy hahahaha!!! (im just nuts – trying to type with my eyes closed -.-”)

its raining very heavily!!! and such nice weather to sleep!!!! wish dinosaur was here. cos he loves rainy days as much as i do lolx. ALMOST as much as i do. i love the thunder too!

i just re-realised that my blog is still kinda bitchy lolx. i mean, i SOUND pretty bimbotic sometimes . lolx. theres one thing about reading other people’s blogs. u find that sometimes what you dont like to read in other people’s blogs appears in your own blog too no matter how hard you wanna deny it lolx. but the truth’s just staring right in your face.

no, i dont regret anything ive said in sec sch. i can not say that i dont regret ANYTHING ive ever done. there is just two things that i regret: 1) not being able to stop that bastard 2) not studying harder. theres oso one thing i dont like about remembering sec sch days. the face, the memory of that as*hole just sticks in my brain. sends chills up my spine. freaking me out. i guess theres very few ppl who know exactly what im talking about. i long for the day i can openly speak about it. without feeling guilty or shaking in fear.

its starting to rain!!! yippee yipx yipx!!! lol. i think im nuts. u wanna noe why? cos i just quoted a p1. tuition student’s parents 250 a month for 3x a week, 1.5hrs each time, 3 subs. -.-” am i nuts? the market rate is about 20 an hr for NIE trainees for p.1 students (one subject). anyways. 250 is not even enough to cover my monthly transport fees. shit man. initial rate was supposed to be at least 350 lar. im just crazy!!!! -.-”"

i love the rain.

and anyways. dinosaur’s competition is tomorrow!!! jia you jia you!!!!!! urm if u rmb, ur phone got camera, must help me try to take pics of opera house ok??? heheheheh.

im so blur lar!! jz nw i ran up to my room to check some tuition rates and then after the phone calls i went downstairs (to greet my mum who just got home .. she went back to NAFA to do sketching) and then i was like: i think i forgot to bring something up… and it was my whole entire bag!!!!! lolx. i just left it there aft i came home from parkway and forgot to take the whole darned thing up lol. and i didnt know! im just mad, really.

- another 6-7 days before dinosaur comes back!!! -

oh and check out the “advertisements” that the students at the learning centre did as part of their chinese homework lolx. pretty cool!!

lolx. cute right?? lolx. and look what the thai students did during class break:

(sidenote: the internet tonight is konked up!! totally and absolutely konked up!!)

(p.s. i think the pig was supposed to be me but no matter. at least it looks cute lolx!!!!)

this is supposed to be bonus – hes always trying to eat my sweets

pretty cute n cool huh lolx. is it just me or is today’s internet super konked up? i rmb there was sth else i wanted to say but i just forgot what. oh btw. TOMORROW I’M GOING SWIMMING!!!!! ladeedahdeedah!! lolx. im happy cos i havent swam for soooooo long. but of course, the downside is, poor alicia has to see all my flabs lolx. sry!!