doodles

if arts were as easy as many of the other people out there think, then there wouldn’t be people such as Beethoven, Da Vinci, Mozart, Schumann, Tapies, Botero etc. there wouldn’t be such a thing called “great musicians” nor will there be “great artists” nor “great historians, authors…” ‘cos they wouldn’t be able to command respect and awe and admiration. the reason why they are “great” and why they command such respect and admiration for us is because they are able to do what we are not able to and achieve what we can’t. it’s because we think from our perspective and viewpoint that they are different. VERY. such that they can surmount great difficulties that we encounter in doing all that they do or are able to achieve a level that we could never think of. it is what makes them “great”. if all these subjects (which are generalised under ‘arts’) were easy, they would never exist. and we would never know their name. nor would their names be able to resonate in all our minds through all time till today and into the future. such is the nature of greatness. so, who is it to say that arts is easy, easier, far easier than any science subject? and, who, also, is it to say that it’s unworthy of effort and is worth nothing in the world and the society? isn’t part of culture arts? in my opinion, for that matter, both are almost equal. and everyone would find that out. IF, and only if, we only bother to look at things from a more objective perspective.

what??!! again?!!?
yeah guess what!
i left my mp3 at home! had to live without music d whole day.. not what i’d call an ideal day.. what’s more, i pulled d zipper onto my lip, i.e. i zipped my own lip. within seconds, i clipped my finger while closing the bottle cap. that’s not all. trying to wash my face when d soap went “splat!” into my eye. i think i’d be having a sore eye tomorrow. and i nearly fell down the stairs and had a stomach ache and i forgot to bring my keys again. whew! what a trying day. i MUST go and check my horoscope. i believe it’s my very very unlucky week this week. i hope my luck will change for the better soon. 2 weeks to As and i haven’t started studying. don’t wish me luck. i don’t need luck. i need a miracle.

sighx… so blur of me.. left my phone at home.. for the first time in my life!!!
grrr.. geeeeee… AND i forgot to bring my house keys out! for the first time too!!
i must be experiencing cognitive slowing.. gosh! i think i have hyperthyroidism.. SERIOUS! not to mention that no one was at home when i reached home so.. even when wearing a skirt i had to CLIMB THE GATE!! needed use the bathroom real badly.. so yeah! what a GORGEOUS day. not to mention that though i wanted to study today, i forgot to bring all my notes. so what did i do the whole day? NOTHING!! i really really really wanna kill myself. gosh. i’d better do something about my non-existent brain. maybe make it grow or something. better polish myself up. i don’t have much time left.

… What is that to the whilte child hacked in bed?
To savages, expendable as Jews?…
… The violence of beast on beast is read
As natural law, but upright man
Seeks his divinity by inflicting pain…
… calls courage still that native dread
Of the white peace contracted by the dead…
…The gorilla wrestles with the superman
I who am poisoned with the blood of both,
Where shall I turn, divided to the vein?
I who have cursed
The drunken officer of British rule,how choose
Between this Africa and the English tongue I love?
Betray them both, or give back what they give?
How can I face such slaughter and be cool?
How can I turn from Africa and live?

seem desperate for entertainment?
actually, we’re not.. the pack of cards didn’t see the light of day for a really really long time…

as all will know, i think it is quite clear what i’m referring to. it’s no allusion or blah blah technique. juz a less straightforward way of saying what i want to say with minimal risk of getting sued. NOW, it’s THAT obvious

of course it’s sensitive and stuff and u noe, the government should step in at some point or the other.. but maybe we should minimise it a little??? juz maybe. according to GP and lit, we need to QUALIFY, so i prolly should say: it seems that it may be possible to tentatively conclude(logically deduce) that even though it is a very sensitive topic, we (second person viewpoint) should minimise government control over the topic by a teeny weeny little bit (not a phrase that is accepted in either paper) so as to make it seem as though the people have freedom of choice and speech (CREATE THE ILLUSION THAT). i really shouldn’t be commenting anymore on it lest i be suspended from school for saying such inappropriate things on the internet.

SO!!!

* life is beautiful,
* it is wonderful
* we are not conformists
* we think for ourselves
* we have freedom (of choice, control, speech, whatever we want freedom for)
* it’s utopia we’re living in (btw: utopia comes from the greek words “ooh” and “topos”. “ooh” meaning ‘not’ and “topos” meaning ‘place’. therefore, it SEEMS logical to conclude that “utopia” means “not a place”. hence, it DOES NOT EXIST!!!)
* there is no dehumanisation
* people live for living, and not for economic purpose/economical benefits/social stability
* we are not objects of society

if there is one thing we are sure of, it must be the fact that we were:
“decanted” from a physical implement after being impregnated with a physical implement which, logically, makes us NATURAL and a part of nature.

OH JOY!!!
*i drink to my annihilation*

beautiful, ain’t it? sunset in thailand padi fields.
tried, tested, guaranteed plus one-year warranty ar!!
sorry.. been too stressed out lately..
tarah! *for now*

its d first time i felt that exams can be really stressful.. haha..
stomach aches, insomnia.. u name it.. haha..
budden, d stress makes me wanna de-stress (like.. DUH??!!!)
so then, i started flippin’ through my photo album and scrapbook and journals and found loads of TREASURES! started me thinkin’ (actually, missing) the thais.. juz been lookin’ thru the photos from the cd and the beauty of the scenery and sweetness of the untainted air juz came sweeping back to me.. haha.. sounds weird, huh? but it’s true, tho.
would love to live that kinda life, but face it! i guess i’m juz too used to comfort to face the resident frogs and insects every single day and night (plus bathing in the ice cold water in the dead of the night) what a dumb entry this is but… haha! i don’t care.
it’s been a tirin’ month.. juz wanna get things off my back before i get started up on my engine for the ‘last leg of the race’ (psst. what a total cliche)
i DO sound bored, don’t i? well, i TRULY AM!!! *yawnz**stretch*

well, duty calls! time for hit the books again. sighx.
is it just me, or do most people do this:

1. mean to go online just to print something (important for your next planned event)
2. go online
3. “drop by” inbox
4. “drop by” music downloading website
5: start downloading music and getting into the swing of it
6. see people coming online
7. start to pick up a conversation about NOTHING
8. assure yourself it’s the last five minutes
9. decide to check and update blog/website/both/all
10. think about what to write just for the sake of writing
11. look at the time
12. FREAK OUT!!!!!
13. log off (like now)

SCRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!! (hmmz… referring to myself..)